The Bucket List……..Is It My Turn In Life?
I remember sometime last year writing a list of things I have always wanted to do in my life, but never had the opportunity to fulfill. I suppose it was my turning 50 moment and reflecting back to where all the years went! I guess you would refer to that list as my Bucket List! God, I loved that movie. I don’t know what I did with my list, for all I know it may have ended up in the garbage, during one of my “I don’t give a damn menopause episodes.”
If you have followed this blog, you know the last couple of years have brought tremendous challenges to our family. Financially we have lost everything, and have had to start over. It has been extremely difficult and very humbling. It has also made us appreciate so much more that life has to offer. You know, the little things……..which is all we can afford anyway……LOL…….. Having to go back to work, after being retired for the last 10 years, has really made me have a reality check on my future. So, this brings me to many thoughts I have had recently…………my Bucket List. My god I’m 51, my children are married living their lives, my belongings are minimal, and I think it is now time to decide what the hell is next? I had so many aspirations when young, but decided to focus on the importance of marriage (obviously my ex-husband didn’t) and being a good mother (he missed that one too). I always thought I would have time to do all the things I dreamed of, as if life and time stood still until my children were raised. Many of the aspirations I had years ago would not apply to a 51 year old woman, so my Bucket List may be a bit shorter………., but that is the reality of it. Wasn’t it Oprah who said that women always tend to put themselves last and everyone else first? Well, the realization is that when we do that, as I have, our dreams get pushed back to ‘last’ also.
My husband still wants to open his own restaurant someday, and also go back to cooking competitions. In years past he won many BBQ Competitions, like the ones The Food Network shows randomly…….which is why my ass has gotten so big……LOL. His big prize was the Jack Daniels, where he won First Place for Ribs and Brisket. Yummy 
This is his dream though, and I am supportive of it, but if I continue to put my dreams last I will never experience them. I know the years are ticking away and I need to face that reality and start going after what I want in life. At 51 (soon to be 52) I am seriously at a crossroads in my life, and need some answers on “what’s next for Sandy?” Now, more than ever, I want to see some of the aspirations I have always had come to fruition. Here is some of my Bucket List, to be revised at my discretion……..because I forget more often now……..an age thing I am sure…..lol:
1) Healthy Cooking Recipes Blog or Website.
2) Mountain Country Home with acres for my pets to run and play (possibly my horses, which I miss terribly)
2007 Times I Miss With My Horse
3) Quiet time to write more often and share my thoughts (for whoever cares to listen???).
4) Have our Zoegetics Business successful where we can help others get healthy and earn income in the process. http://www.zoelifestyle.com/mspell
http://www.zoeismoms.com
5) Have trained pets that can be taken to visit the elderly and sick children for healing purposes and companionship.
6) Have an art room for pottery making, and other arts.
7) Travel (Colorado, Alaska, California, Italy, England to name a few).
8) Hiking and River Rafting in the Mountains.
This year is Balance and Peace for my New Years Goals (which I am doing good at), along with two items on my Bucket List. I’ll keep you posted on my progess!
