My Grits Confessions, Losing It at 50

Alina & I

Ok, this is a red alert, my daughter just called and informed me she is getting married in three weeks.  I already had ‘empty nest syndrome’ with her going into the military, but I knew she was still my girl.  Now I am losing her to marriage…….good grief……..this is too much in one year!  My son marrying last October, my daughter going in the military in January and now my daughter marrying in three weeks.  Can it get any worse for a mother?   I think not……..this is it…….the worst.  I don’t know what to do right now, bitch or cry?   Ok, I now have a headache.  

I am happy for her……….hmmm, I think.  As their mother, I only want the best for my children, and I certainly don’t want them making the same idiotic mistakes I did, and still do at times!   I just don’t want her to settle for less, but to do all the things she always dreamed of doing.    You know, not screw up like I did in life and do none of the things I always dreamed of doing, outside of having a family. LOL…….God, if I could go back……….

Alina has been remarkable in her accomplishments with the Navy this year.  This is possibly one reason I don’t know if I am excited about her marrying, or concerned that it is possibly too soon.   She and Joe have dated for two years, except for when they broke up briefly a few times………..ahhhh, young love.  He is a nice guy, and I know they both care for each other, I only hope they are ready for all the unforeseen surprises a new marriage can bring.   You know………..toilet seat up, hair shavings all over the sink, laundry on the floor, remote control syndrome……….lol….  I suppose these are the things I need to warn her about….amongst others!

Her getting married phone call, has created over 20 phone calls from her grandmother……….lol.  Keep in-mind, her grandmother is 85 and doesn’t always recall the previous conversation, even if it was within the same day.  One phone call may be the same phone call you have again, and again, and again.  Her grandmother is an angel, but I now need tremendous patience……..which I have very little of since menopause invaded my life.  This will be a wedding for the record books in our family.  In 3 weeks we will have a small gathering of family, which includes my father who is 87 and can’t hear, my mother who is 85 and doesn’t remember (tends to repeat herself – alot), our family and the grooms family will meet for the first time(I hope I like them!  LOL), and of course my hormones raging all over the place.  This may or may not be a good mix. 

Ahhh, already this morning, 8am, and yet another message from grandma…….lol……God help me.